In my almost two years in the holistic fields I naturally found myself gravitating to high performance individuals. They seemed to benefit from my naturally calming aura. I admired their minds, how they dreamed big, went for their goals, and had deep understanding into the workings of life. Not just from a business standpoint. But also in the mental and quantum realms, perhaps without realizing it. Attributing their success to God or something of a higher power.
I spend a great deal of my time cultivating my peace and value my time. These individuals also valued the limited time they had. Contrary to the people who were also I’m my spiritual fields they showed up for themselves, others, and I. I found a great deal of respect and admiration for them. They had what I lacked and I had what they needed.
Beneath looking like they have it all together, the excellence in there field, the material assets they argued, the perfect social mask they wore deep inside there was a part of them that they pushed down that was slowly dieing. A part of them atrophying in order to provide, to protect, and to go on.
After allowing themselves to drop the carefully curated armor needed in able to go out into the battlefield of life, they softed. I considered a gift of their feeling of safety enough to be vulnerable. Divorce, no intimacy, loss of libido, or inability to physiologically respond, humiliation, fear of failure. For just a moment they could relax and let that all melt away in my skilled and caring hands.
Pills, injections, magic bullets could help sometimes. But the root cause was still festering like a dark wound undressed. Creeping into their reality. Tainting their daily lives. Haunting them and creating anxiety in the back of their minds.
It becomes a game of blame. Perhaps on the other, on themselves, on age, on circumstance. But it’s not their fault. They were born with a different set of gifts. They specialized in a completely different field. There is a reason the ancient and mystics regard tantra as an art.
For the last two decades I have been walking the cyclical path and it has led me back to several truths. One that pleasure is medicine. Two that emotions that are unable to be processed become trapped in the body and can cause challenges. That unprocessed shame, guilt, fear, heartache, loss, and failure are some of the most dense and debilitating emotions that can lead to ones demise.
With my extensive experience in prostate work, energy work, massage, and sound therapy, I have guided clients closer to thier sense of self. By shedding these traumas and stuck energies, their bodies begin to function again, their hearts open, and they are reawakened to feelings of their vitality returning and youth once again. From reduced pain, improved erections, increased health, happiness, and sense to well being, to manifesting love into their life. Within months of clearing my clients heart walls three of them were engaged. Our natural state is love. And this life is to unlearn and heal so that we may return to our natural state of being. I reconnect peoples sexual energy to their heart .
Something incredibly powerful that I am aware of is that the male orgasam from lingum stimulation is equivalent to snack but the prostate orgasm is like a 7 course meal from a Michelin star restaurant. A quick jaunt verses a pleasure oddessy. With prostate and pelvic floor stimulation so many more erogous zones can be stimulated that release deep stress, trauma, pain, and liberates energy. Not only is it deeply pleasurable. But is also liberating. My clients often walk out looking like a whole new person. Years instantly drop off their face and they vibrate differently. Renewed. Able to take on anything. If you want verification I invite you to check out a Reddit thread ;)
What makes me rare is that I have been curious about exploring prostate, strap-on, and bisexuality as a young adult. I was very curious and met my first boyfriend as an adult to ask questions about his orientation, preferences, and bi-sexuality. I discovered sexuality is complex and a spectrum, I did not yet have the words of the deep understanding that I have know. I explored a great deal of things with curiosity, opens, and and genuine interest. At one point of time I was one of the top two Strap-On providers in the San Francisco, Bay Area. I traded my harness in for a “normal life” trying to shrink myself to fit into societies standards. But after painful experiences and lessons I learned to love myself and accept myself to be a way shower for others. To explore their bodies and pleasure without shame. That sensuality can be explored in safe healing containers and that there is nothing wrong or inherently evil about our bodies.
